Put others before you or yourself before the others. That was what Reini thought about really hard recently after these incidents happened when she was going to work. Reini often saw these kind of incident but never felt as guilty as now. Because in some way she was the reason why those incidents happened. The first incident happened this morning when she went to work. It was seemed usual for her like every other days, she bought a cup of black coffee and a bagel on her way to the bus station. Reini knew about the food regulation in the bus though, she just like the coffee accross the street she usually passed by and also she hated her office's coffee. So after waited for awhile her bus was finally arrived. She took the same bus since her first day work and she knew her driver who took her to work every morning. And a morning greet followed by "Miss" was what she always heard from the driver and she always replied him and straight to look for an empty seat, because it wss quite far where she was heading. Sometimes she got a seat and sometimes she didn't. And that day fortunately she saw an empty seat, but unfortunately she was outfast-ed by a guy that looked fit for 24 hour standing on a bus olympic if it was exist. "well, standing like usual." she said to herself. While standing she tried to keep her coffee not spilling out cause this terrible road had tilt her right to left. but she didnt remember the road was this bad before or maybe the driver really had a bad day. Thought about the driver while keeping herself up from falling, she didnt remember have replied his greeting, or did he ever greet her in the first place. She started to feel sore on her feet, the road is killing her and the first stop is the longest one. A minute later the bus announced that it has arrived at the first stop. And appearantly it was the guy's who-outfast-ed-her-and-took-her-seat stop. "What a lazy guy, sat just for one stop." she thought. She bolted down right away to the seat right before it was taken by this old man which just came in. after she took the seat, the old man still didnt realize that behind him there was Reini who already took the seat. And at the same time the bus was moving, the old man pushed forward while tried to sit on reini and fell instead. she was shocked by it and immediately help the old man up but the old man started yelling at her. he thought it was her fault he fell headfirst. Reini was confused and felt a little guilt that shown on her face. Before she had the chance giving up her seat for him to show her apologize, another guy already stood up and give him his seat. with a judging look the guy stood there in front of Reini. Reini felt ashame. but she started defend herself inside her mind and said "my feet was hurt and I didnt see the old man trying to sit here." to herself and started to forget it. And that thought flashed on her mind. Should we put ourself before others or others before ourself?
On the next stop two stops before Reini's, there was a pregnant lady step into the bus uneasily. Before something bad happen to the pregnant lady, reini gave up her seat for her. The lady said thanks to her and she replied with a smile. Reini thought she was doing the right thing. The moment she thought about doing the right thing, the bus started to take a sharp turn without any warning. reini almost fall onto the pregnant lady but she could stop it from happening by held onto the bus window. *splash* there goes her coffee poured out all over the pregnant lady. "OUCH..!" screamed the lady. "I'm so sorry." said reini while she wiped her coffee off of the lady's pregnant belly and head. "OMG, what have I done." thought her in guilt. then the bus anounced the next stop and she felt relief because it was the last stop before her destination and it was the pregnant lady's stop so she felt less embarassed after the coffee incident. While the bus continued to the next stop, which is hers, alot of thought started coming to her mind again. "what is wrong with me.. when I was put myself first before others, I got into trouble. the second, I put the others before myself, I still got into troubles. so which is right or perhaps less wrong? and these actual examples didnt help me, at all.". She hardly swallowed all of the informations happened in a relatively short frequent time. burried deep in her thought, she started to feel something is wrong. it took too long for the bus to take her to her stop. She looked out through the window, and yes, it wasnt her usual route. she bolted up and ask the driver why there was no anouncement at the previous stop. And he simply said "I forgot it mam, I'm so sorry I'm new here." And that was the answer of all her question.
